I get asked this question multiple times a week. I don't mind. I think people are a little scared to ask me/us how things are really going with having a baby. I am aware that I am a private yet blunt person. But we do appreciate the concern and constant prayers.
Where are we with "things"? We are at a great place! I can speak for both of us in saying that we have been able to "live" these past few months. We have taken a step back and decided to take another path. The path labeled Josh and Amber. We realized that we are both still very young. I know that in the South getting married right after high school and having a baby shortly there after is definitely the norm. There is absolutley nothing wrong with that I just think that was putting a lot of pressure on us. We have always done our own thing and love every minute of it. We are for sure taking a break from all of the fertility meds, procedures, timed you know what, etc. But we are not using anything to prevent a pregnancy either. I HATED, I mean HATED taking Clomid. It made me a mad woman!! I wasn't neccessarily mean to people I just had so much anxiety, hot flashes, etc. I know a lot of people think that it is selfish or that I must not really want a baby if I am not willing to continue with IUIs, take meds and try IVF. That is ok... think what you want. I just had to take a look from the outside looking in. I had a very well known fertility specialist tell me and my husband that we are perfectly normal and that he doesn't really know why we can't get pregnant. I did not look at him and think that he was giving up on us or that he ran out of options. The man makes a grand everytime he sees me. I am sure he will do procedures all day long if that is what we wanted. What I am trying to say is we believe whole heartedly that it's just not our time, yet. I have no idea what is in store for us in regards to a child. I have no clue!! Sometimes I feel like if I just knew when the time will be I will be good. But then I think, nope I dont want to know. I want it to be the biggest suprise to us and our family and friends. I want it to blind side us in a good way. God is blessing our lil family in ways we never thought possible.
About our cup that runneth over..... Work is good for Josh! The guy works his booty off. He catches a lot of flack from ppl because he has a home office, but he works hard down there in his little office. When he travels, which has been a lot here lately, he continues to impress his employer. He has a way with people. He absolutely amazes me at what he has accomplished at such a young age. He takes care of us, always has. I am so proud of him... and love him to pieces. I have started back with my side business, Dress 4 Less. It is booming right now. I have had to hire some help. I love working with my ladies and finding them the latest fashion at the lowest possible prices. I always have a few hiccups with customers, vendors and inventory but I just say a prayer and do what I can do to solve the problem. NO ONE HAS EVER DIED FROM A CLOTHING EMERGENCY! Clothes parties are booking fast and I always have the most fun at them! My life is pretty crazy... I work from 8-5 and go home and scan my vendors for the latest styles, post, invoice, email, then the normal duties at home. But I love organized chaos! God is definitely with me, always! My daytime job has taken a much needed twist. I had been feeling like I was spinning around constantly and felt kind of lost with it all. I knew for a while my current job situation would have to change! It had just ran its course. I prayed everyday, many times a day for something to change. I always thanked God for my job and told him that I would stay and learn to deal with it if that be his will. But it was not his will! He opened a door for me and the transission process has started. I work for my current employer for 3 hrs a day and my new employer for 6 hrs a day. I LOVE IT! I love the relaxed atmosphere!
Our church, Journey, is rockin it! I mean I hate to miss a Sunday, Wednesday or Sunday night class. I feel like I get so much out of it and I try my best to apply it to my everyday life. I fail miserably a lot but I just pick my self back up and start over. Josh loves to part of the praise team band. Josh and I also cook the Intro to Journey meal once a month. That allows us to meet new people who have been visiting and are interested in joining. Our Fall Festival is coming up! Amanda is doing a fantastic job at putting it together and I think it will be fabulous! I am also taking a class on Sunday night. It is going great and I get to experience it with my friend Nikki G! I thank God everyday for Journey Church and for the messages HE gives Bro. Robby to relay to us every Sunday. That guy has a way with words!
To sum us up... Life is Good Today! I am so very thankful for all of my many undeserved blessings. I continue to pray for Wisdom, Guidance and Forgiveness and offer my thanksgivings everyday. I would be no where without God. He has lead me through some dark dark days and always had a ray of sunshine waiting on me.... I just had to listen to his direction.
That's All Folks!
